So I've spent the last two days running at the gym.. Cutting my calories and my legs started feeling string again.. Decided to take Friday the 13th off from the gym.. Since I got into an early access beta for a popular up n coming game that's hiting the market in September.. Then the experience got ruined for me.. By one.. Decoding to answer my phone while playing and listening to a friend babble on about his insecurities, and my fiancé barking orders at me on the other end.. Saying go left, go right, reload reload, needless to say.. I felt like an idiot.. And now as usual I go to sleep and wake up to an empty bed.. I'm feeling out of place and of touch.. I think im angry that I can't do what he does.. I wish I had someone to look after me.. In the way I look after him..
I've got so many little obligations that I feel as if I'm on my own here.. I think the truth is.. I am on my own.. I know it's ridiculous to say that.. But it is the truth..
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